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<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n <\/p>\n You pace back and forth, your legs propelling you like turbines as they practically swerve across the carpet.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n You can’t stay still, restless with barely-contained excitement for tomorrow. A billion thoughts race through your mind, all surrounding the newest major development in your life, the most pressing of which you\u2019re currently focused on:<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n What the hell you\u2019re going to wear.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n You stand in front of your tall mirror, the single item in your bedroom that looks like you spent a hundred times more on it than you actually did. You examine your latest outfit with a critical eye, frowning at the way the faded blue cardigan currently tenting your body washes you out. You shrug it off you with an impatient groan, tossing it with the other rejected items on your bed.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n You dash back to your wardrobe for the millionth time, ignoring the fact that it looks more like a slit in the wall than an actual closet. You scour your admittedly limited collection, rummaging through all the formal wear you own, picking out one item after the next, but nothing seems satisfactory.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n You\u2019re a frugal person, both by choice and necessity so you don’t spend a lot on clothes\u2014the stack of Benjamins you have to shell out for rent each month, notwithstanding\u2014but you hope that what you have can tide you over for your first week and is at least \u201cprim and proper\u201d enough to not look out of place in a firm as elite as Earth Capital.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n It\u2019s going to be your first official day on the job and you want to give off a good impression.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Nein.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n EIN Gro\u00dfartig<\/em> eines.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n After a few more minutes of playing hide and seek with timeworn fabrics, you realize you have to go shopping for brand new office attire\u2014much sooner than later. Unlike a lot of Californian companies, Earth Cap is traditionally corporate through and through, and their clothing policy reflects that. While you have a thing for casual wear and office environments that don\u2019t impose strict dress codes, successfully completing this internship is your number one priority right now\u2014and that means fitting in.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Und, Apropos<\/em> of fitting in, a part of you really feels like this is your chance to do just that; to finally have a place where you belong. Around like-minded comrades who share the same fundamental thoughts and sentiments.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Um \u2026 ein Zuhause zu haben.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n A thing that has evaded you your entire life.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n For a while, you genuinely thought you\u2019d found that with Peace by Peace. But, over the years, you came to realize that, as much as you like it there, things just never\u2026clicked. Not really. Not in the way they sollte<\/em>.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n You know for a fact that if you hadn’t felt the way you did about Adam, you would’ve left a long time ago. And even das<\/em> wurde nicht erwidert.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Earth Capital k\u00f6nnte das alles \u00e4ndern.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n You settle on a cream, long-sleeved blouse and a charcoal-grey pencil skirt, pairing off the outfit with some simple black pumps.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Konservativ ist immer am besten<\/em>, you decide, much to your chagrin only because you know it\u2019s what your parents constantly preach. Though, you\u2019re sure they\u2019d be riotously insistent on your skirt reaching your ankles and your heels only going as high as a horizontal sheet of paper.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n But, then again, if it were up to them, you wouldn’t even be Hauptfach<\/em> in environmental science, let alone interning at Earth Cap. And you sure as fuck wouldn’t be living with Michaela. Or be using words like ‘fuck\u2019.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n You shove unwelcome thoughts of your human makers from your mind before they have a chance to ruin your mood.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n You smile to yourself, growing giddy with excitement all over again. With your outfit picked and all your details for tomorrow thoroughly\u2014almost besessen<\/em>\u2014organized, you take a quick, hot shower, hoping it\u2019ll help mellow you out before you turn in for the night. But, somehow, all it does is heighten your impatience.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n You roam the apartment aimlessly, hoping to shed some of the thrill and anticipation, but it feels like you\u2019re walking in circles\u2014in more ways than one.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n So, as usual, you resort to the one thing you know will help sedate your runaway brain.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n You grab your e-reader and settle into bed, snuggling into your pillow as you hold it up to your face.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n It switches on, its display lighting up as the page you bookmarked last night appears before you.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Eine Sexszene.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n One you\u2019ve read five times already.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n One you\u2019re about to read wieder<\/em>.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Your eyes swallow up the words in front of them, eagerly consuming one after the other even as you urge yourself to slow down.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Keine Eile<\/em>, a low, still voice in your head whispers. Nimm dir Zeit.<\/em> Genie\u00dfen Sie es.<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Before you know it, you\u2019re rolling on your back, palming the tablet with a single hand as the other moves to your pajama bottoms.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Your gaze never leaves the screen, earnestly locked on to the text as it plays out in your head. Slowly, your fingers slide beneath your waist band, waiting only a beat before dipping below the film of your panties\u2026and are met with moistening flesh.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Your hand goes static as you adjust to the contrast of cool fingertips against a heated core. But it\u2019s not long before it starts to move of its own volition, lightly stroking your mound. Up. Down. Back and forth. Slowly. Almost\u2026teasing. As if you\u2019re afraid to touch yourself\u2014which wasn\u2019t far from the truth not too long ago.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n You keep reading, your skin faintly abuzz, turning flush as more seconds tick by. Impulsively, your fingers dip further, their contact growing insistent, more intentional; rubbing on your folds and spreading the wet heat gathered between them over your clit. You grip the tablet harder, clutching it almost violently as they move faster, pushing against your opening. The tip of the index pokes through ever so slightly before dragging itself back up to the small, sensitive bud at your center.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n A strained gasp tumbles from your throat when you push down on it; a sharp, ticklish sensation piercing you, fanning into diffused warmth, amplified each time you repeat the action. You lick at your lips, the spontaneous, involuntary gesture spurring you on, obligating you to move faster. Harder. Until you\u2019re practically molding your flesh.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Your hips jerk involuntarily, your breath scattering, morphing into hushed gasps. You pinch your bottom lip between your teeth, subduing the sound of your voice\u2014 something you\u2019re still not comfortable with.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Steadily, a familiar tension fills your body; a delicious, culminating pressure. Rising. And rising. An\u2014<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Impulsively, your fingers part from your flesh, like repelling magnets. Abrupt. Instantaneous.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n You blink against a sudden, familiar heaviness.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Schei\u00dfe. Nicht noch einmal<\/em>.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Once more, you find yourself in an awkward, embarrassing position.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Buchst\u00e4blich.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n You\u2026can’t finish.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n You\u2019ve never been able to.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Nicht einmal<\/em>.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n You hate this feeling; this debilitating guilt that devotedly rears its ugly head each and every time you do this.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n You know you shouldn\u2019t be. That masturbating is healthy. Gut<\/em> f\u00fcr dich. Ein st\u00e4rkender Akt f\u00fcr jeden sexuell bewussten Menschen. Die ultimative, physische Demonstration der Selbstliebe.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n But a lifetime of indoctrination among extreme, overzealous Baptists has taught you the complete opposite and consequently ensured nothing but negative, shameful sentiments when you so much as attempt to imagine what sex is like. Even when you\u2019re alone. Even with nary a soul to watch your “transgression”.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Aber Gott<\/em> beobachtet.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Er ist stets<\/em> Aufpassen.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Die ganze Zeit.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Those words have been hammered into your brain over and over again.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n You\u2019re the furthest thing from a shrink, but even a five-year-old can tell this is a one-hundred-percent psychological issue:<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n You\u2019re internally at war with yourself over what you want and what you\u2019ve been gelehrt<\/em> you want.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Pretty much the story of most people\u2019s lives. Yours just happens to be one of the more offbeat cases. It certainly f\u00fchlt sich<\/em> dieser Weg.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n And you hate that you still can’t overcome it. That you can\u2019t form a solution even though you know what the problem is.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n It took you until your junior year to work up the courage to even try it. And, once you\u2019d finally managed to touch yourself, you couldn’t finish what you\u2019d started. Not even when you employed liquid courage for assistance.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n You toss your e-reader to the side with a frustrated huff, a long, somewhat defeatist sigh succeeding it.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n For all your ponderings and visualizations of sex, you have to wonder how in the world you plan on actually haben<\/em> any if you can’t even manage a single, elementary orgasm on your own.<\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n ***<\/span><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Du gehst hin und her, deine Beine treiben dich wie Turbinen an, w\u00e4hrend sie praktisch \u00fcber den Teppich schwingen. Du kannst nicht still stehen bleiben, ruhelos vor kaum zur\u00fcckgehaltener Aufregung f\u00fcr morgen. Eine Milliarde Gedanken rasen durch Ihren Kopf, alle um die neueste gro\u00dfe Entwicklung in Ihrem Leben, von denen Sie sich derzeit auf die dringendste konzentrieren: Was zum Teufel Sie anziehen werden. Du stehst vor deinem hohen Spiegel, dem einzigen Gegenstand in deinem Schlafzimmer, f\u00fcr den es aussieht, als h\u00e4ttest du hundertmal mehr ausgegeben f\u00fcr \u2026 Weiterlesen<\/a><\/span><\/p>","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":5484,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_bbp_topic_count":0,"_bbp_reply_count":0,"_bbp_total_topic_count":0,"_bbp_total_reply_count":0,"_bbp_voice_count":0,"_bbp_anonymous_reply_count":0,"_bbp_topic_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_reply_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_forum_subforum_count":0,"_themeisle_gutenberg_block_has_review":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[96,93],"tags":[],"series":[107],"class_list":["post-5537","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-contemporary-2","category-romance","series-21-questions-role-play-edition"],"featured_image_src":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/21-Questions-Role-Play-Edition-Cover-Image-640x1024.jpg","blog_images":{"medium":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/21-Questions-Role-Play-Edition-Cover-Image-188x300.jpg","large":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/21-Questions-Role-Play-Edition-Cover-Image-640x1024.jpg"},"ams_acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5537","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5537"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5537\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/5484"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=5537"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=5537"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=5537"},{"taxonomy":"series","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/series?post=5537"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}![\"\"](\"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/21-Questions-Page-Chapter-Heading-Image-232x300.jpg\")
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