{"id":5793,"date":"2021-02-13T10:22:05","date_gmt":"2021-02-13T15:22:05","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/?p=5793"},"modified":"2024-03-20T20:34:27","modified_gmt":"2024-03-21T01:34:27","slug":"21-questions-chapter-fourteen","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/tl\/21-questions-chapter-fourteen\/","title":{"rendered":"21 Questions: Chapter Fourteen"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter wp-image-5494 size-full\" src=\"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/21-Questions-Chapter-Fourteen-Image.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"1289\" height=\"383\" \/><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"size-medium wp-image-5483 aligncenter\" src=\"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/21-Questions-Page-Chapter-Heading-Image-232x300.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"232\" height=\"300\" srcset=\"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/21-Questions-Page-Chapter-Heading-Image-232x300.jpg 232w, https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/21-Questions-Page-Chapter-Heading-Image-464x600.jpg 464w, https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/21-Questions-Page-Chapter-Heading-Image.jpg 495w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 232px) 100vw, 232px\" \/><\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">I take a deep, silent breath as I settle into the same chair I did earlier, clasping my hands in my lap as if I have to physically brace myself for whatever&#8217;s coming.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">It&#8217;s amazing how the same, <em>exact<\/em> action can feel poles apart under different circumstances.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\"><em>And I thought I was nervous before&#8230;<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">&#8220;You look like you have something to say,&#8221; Covington commences, offering me his undivided attention.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">As confused as I feel, there&#8217;s no reason to beat around the bush.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">&#8220;Mr. Covington&#8230;&#8221; I begin, thinking of how to best phrase this as I go, choosing my words carefully, &#8220;when I applied, I specified that I wanted to specialize in the wildlife conservation sector and that was what I was officially accepted into the internship program under. There was never any mention of anything other than that in my letter or from my unit. So, I don&#8217;t understand why I&#8217;m on this account when I\u2019m not at all versed in the energy industry\u2014and certainly not the <em>oil<\/em> industry.&#8221;<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">The emphasis of the latter spurs me on, eliciting barely-veiled irritation that quickly overshadows any awkwardness, fear or uncertainty I feel.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">&#8220;In your interview,&#8221; he counters, looking at me squarely, &#8220;you made it a point to emphasize the fact that you are flexible. If I recall, your exact words were, \u2018Uncompromising stringency is impractical in the real world, even with the best ideals and intentions&#8217;. You also mentioned that you&#8217;re a great team player. You noted that one of your particularly strong suits was your ability to quickly adapt to new challenges, situations and tasks, as well as assimilate into new environments.&#8221;<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">I open my mouth, trying to rebuff his words but I come up short, able to find nothing to re-counter, easily recalling the sentences I confidently typed as they fall from his. Each statement transitions perfectly to the next, not missing a beat.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">It&#8217;s as if he memorized them.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\"><em>Intentionally<\/em>.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">He simply looks at me, waiting for me to go on when it&#8217;s clear that I can&#8217;t, using my own silence against me to make his point.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">I shake my head in spite of myself, even when the words refuse to come out, as if doing so will give me clarity on this abrupt, illogical situation.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">&#8220;As I mentioned downstairs, Miss Myers,&#8221; he continues despite my visible bewilderment, &#8220;as well as during the briefing we just had, Zanergy is the biggest client we\u2019ve ever had, in <em>all<\/em> of Earth Capital&#8217;s history, and we have to make every effort to ensure our collaboration not only goes smoothly, but excels. To that end, one of the agreements during the acquisition of the account was that one Earth Cap representative will have to be available on the Zanergy premises for the initial phase of the project, twenty-four-seven.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">&#8220;Since you&#8217;re not a permanent employee and the only temporary worker on the team, you\u2019ll be designated as our full-time representative at Zanergy and therefore be residing at their premises for the duration of your internship\u2014&#8221;<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">My eyes almost bulge right out of their sockets, my hands waving in protest before I can stop them, the words I couldn\u2019t find earlier suddenly spilling out of me at hearing this newest development.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">&#8220;Mr. Covington\u2026<em>sir<\/em>&#8230;I&#8217;m still trying to process simply <em>being<\/em> on the account. Having to suddenly move to another location as well is not at <em>all<\/em> something I&#8217;m prepared for. And, please, don&#8217;t take this the wrong way. I&#8217;m extremely flattered and honored to be considered at all but, objectively speaking, I don&#8217;t have the necessary experience for an account of this scale, especially in this field.&#8221;<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">My heart\u2019s thumping harder now and, somehow, I get the feeling I&#8217;m arguing a case that I\u2019ve already lost even as I hope my words get through to him.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">Covington regards me for a minute, briefly clasping his fingers, as if he&#8217;s reconsidering.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">&#8220;I completely understand your apprehension, seeing how this was suddenly sprung up on you, Myers,\u201d he nods. \u201cAnd, you\u2019re right; this <em>is<\/em> extremely short notice\u2026&#8221;<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">I exhale at that, my shoulders slouching slightly as a sense of relief starts to trickle over me.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">&#8220;\u2026but I&#8217;m <em>positive<\/em> you&#8217;ll rise to the occasion and take advantage of such a huge, once-in-a-lifetime opportunity.&#8221;<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">There is absolute finality in that statement.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">And I hate that I can recognize it.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">I try to voice my hesitation again, but he easily cuts me off.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">&#8220;Of course, if you insist on refusing, I can&#8217;t <em>force<\/em> you to,&#8221; he shrugs. &#8220;You will be well within your rights. But you should keep in mind that declining a job will go on your record.&#8221;<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\"><em>And any hope of getting a permanent position here in the future pretty much goes down the fucking toilet.<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">He doesn&#8217;t have to say the words. They&#8217;re written all over his face.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">He brings his forearms to rest on his desk. &#8220;So\u2026&#8221; he arches his brow, &#8220;will you take it or not?&#8221;<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">For a moment, all I can do is stare back at him as he verbally hands me his ultimatum, my breath leaving me in a weak exhale. My eyes flutter closed briefly, unable to hide the sheer disappointment ramming through every inch of me.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">&#8220;Yes,&#8221; I swallow, relenting, the single word leaving me in the tiniest whisper, as if I don&#8217;t want to hear myself say it.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\"><em>Like I have a choice.<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">&#8220;Good,&#8221; Covington concludes. &#8220;Arrangements will be made for your transfer within the hour. You\u2019re assigned to this division full-time, effective immediately.&#8221;<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">I&#8217;m in a complete daze as I step out of his office.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">Everything feels out of whack.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">Too sudden.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">Extremely rushed.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">I don\u2019t even know what to think.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">This is the absolute last thing I expected walking in this morning.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">I head back to my department, discombobulated and in shock with only a single thought running through my mind:<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\"><em>What the <\/em>fuck<em> just happened?<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\"><em>\u00a0<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">***<\/span><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>&nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; I take a deep, silent breath as I settle into the same chair I did earlier, clasping my hands in my lap as if I have to physically brace myself for whatever&#8217;s coming. &nbsp; It&#8217;s amazing how the same, exact action can feel poles apart under different circumstances. &nbsp; And I thought I was nervous before&#8230; &nbsp; &#8220;You look like you have something to say,&#8221; Covington commences, offering me his undivided attention. &nbsp; As confused as I feel, there&#8217;s no reason to beat around the bush. &nbsp;&#8230; <span class=\"more\"><a class=\"more-link\" href=\"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/tl\/21-questions-chapter-fourteen\/\">Magbasa pa<\/a><\/span><\/p>","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":5760,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_bbp_topic_count":0,"_bbp_reply_count":0,"_bbp_total_topic_count":0,"_bbp_total_reply_count":0,"_bbp_voice_count":0,"_bbp_anonymous_reply_count":0,"_bbp_topic_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_reply_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_forum_subforum_count":0,"_themeisle_gutenberg_block_has_review":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[96,93],"tags":[],"series":[108],"class_list":["post-5793","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-contemporary-2","category-romance","series-21-questions"],"featured_image_src":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/21-Questions-Cover-Image.jpg","blog_images":{"medium":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/21-Questions-Cover-Image-300x200.jpg","large":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/21-Questions-Cover-Image.jpg"},"ams_acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/tl\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5793","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/tl\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/tl\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/tl\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/tl\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5793"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/tl\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5793\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/tl\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/5760"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/tl\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=5793"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/tl\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=5793"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/tl\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=5793"},{"taxonomy":"series","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/tl\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/series?post=5793"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}