{"id":5804,"date":"2021-02-13T10:34:48","date_gmt":"2021-02-13T15:34:48","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/?p=5804"},"modified":"2024-03-20T20:45:41","modified_gmt":"2024-03-21T01:45:41","slug":"21-questions-chapter-nineteen","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/zh\/21-questions-chapter-nineteen\/","title":{"rendered":"21 Questions: Chapter Nineteen"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter wp-image-5496 size-full\" src=\"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/21-Questions-Chapter-Nineteen-Image.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"1315\" height=\"383\" \/><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"size-medium wp-image-5483 aligncenter\" src=\"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/21-Questions-Page-Chapter-Heading-Image-232x300.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"232\" height=\"300\" srcset=\"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/21-Questions-Page-Chapter-Heading-Image-232x300.jpg 232w, https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/21-Questions-Page-Chapter-Heading-Image-464x600.jpg 464w, https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/21-Questions-Page-Chapter-Heading-Image.jpg 495w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 232px) 100vw, 232px\" \/><\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">I suck in a deep, mangled breath, willing my heart to calm itself, blinking rapidly at the screen and trying to steel my nerves as it continues to vibrate.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">I answer on the third one. &#8220;Hello?&#8221; I blurt into the receiver, feigning absent strength in my voice.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">&#8220;Hello,&#8221; a male voice responds on the other end\u2014one that obviously does <em>\u4e0d\u662f<\/em> belong to Richard Zane. &#8220;Is this Miss Constance Myers?&#8221;<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">A sense of disappointment instantly fills me, and I <em>hate <\/em>that it does; the tension quickly seeping from my spine, making my shoulders slouch as I loosen the grip on my phone.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">&#8220;Yes, this is her,&#8221; I say a bit more somberly.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">&#8220;Good morning, ma\u2019am. My name is Terry Gibbs,\u201d he states. \u201cI&#8217;m the head operator of Zanergy\u2019s Local Relocation and Transportation sub-division. Mr. Zane has arranged for your immediate transfer to the San Francisco base. My team and I are more than happy to organize your move. However, <em>because<\/em> this is a last-minute scheduling, we don\u2019t have nearly as much legroom with the time window as usual. The movers will be dispatching soon and anticipate an arrival time of 8:30 AM at your address. While I can\u2019t make any promises, if you have a different preferred time, please let me know and we\u2019ll do our best to work around that.&#8221;<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\"><em>\u00a0<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">My eyes go wide all over again.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\"><em>Holy crap, 8:30\u2019s only a little over an hour away.<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">That\u2019s <em>way <\/em>too soon.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">My first impulse is to tell him that, but I quickly realize that they\u2019re probably hoping to beat at least <em>some <\/em>traffic. Their drive here would be the most certain way to do that. If they leave later in the day, chances are, the entire move will get delayed significantly.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\"><em>Damn this transfer all over again.<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">&#8220;Eight-thirty\u2019s fine,\u201d I concur with an inaudible sigh, reluctantly getting out of bed, knowing that a time at \u2018my own convenience\u2019 would likely mean even more <em>inconvenience <\/em>down the line.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">Mr. Gibbs and I exchange a few more words about logistics and other moving details as my head whips left and right, silently trying to figure out how in the hell I&#8217;m going to get packed in an hour while I assure him that it&#8217;s all I need.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">&#8220;All right. I&#8217;ll contact you again shortly,&#8221; he concludes before hanging up.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">I head to the living room, nervously setting the phone down in plain view as I regard the chaotic state around me.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">It\u2019s like a unicorn and his wasted frat brother barfed all over the place.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\"><em>Twice<\/em>.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">Without a minute to spare, I swiftly clean up the remnants of last night&#8217;s partying from the coffee table, discarding empty bottles and impatiently gathering strewn board games in an attempt to tidy up a bit before I start assembling my belongings.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">While the small window makes me nervous, packing <em>itself<\/em> should be fairly easy\u2014considering I don&#8217;t have that much to bring. Most of the stuff here is Michaela&#8217;s.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\"><em>First things first, though. <\/em><\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">I start a pot of coffee, inhaling the delectable aroma of Adam&#8217;s gift as it brews. I take a careful sip, my eyes drifting closed in absolute bliss, humming in delight in spite of myself.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\"><em>Nothing should ever taste this good<\/em>, I relish as I take another.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">I drain the first cup before I even realize it, putting my new present to use far sooner than I thought I would. And, with the way this day is panning out, it\u2019s probably going to end up extinct before it\u2019s over.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">Almost exactly an hour later, Gibbs calls again, informing me that the movers are outside. I all but erupt in a hysterical panic. Despite my relatively few possessions, I grossly overestimated my ability to pack quickly, still only half-way through getting my things together when I get off the phone with him.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">My skin buzzes with a strange rush of both excitement and anxiety and, before long, I&#8217;m running around like a chicken with its head axed, flinging this here and stuffing that there, completely giving up on folding or sorting anything like I\u2019d initially been doing.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">Miraculously, I manage to pull it off within the next ten minutes. On my way out, my eyes dart back to the coffee table, eyeing the mini clay pot from Adam\u2019s gardening kit where I somehow managed to plant a single tulip bulb between rounds of donkey poker and Michaela\u2019s ridiculous game last night. I deliberate whether or not I should take it. <em>That<\/em> doesn&#8217;t take long, knowing it&#8217;ll probably end up dead\u2014or as drunk as I was\u2014before it\u2019s even had the chance to germinate if I leave it with <em>cousin dearest<\/em>.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">I glance around one more time, praying I haven&#8217;t forgotten anything important. I&#8217;d hate to have to drive over two hours each way because I was forgetful.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">With a final run-through, I check my watch for the umpteenth time. It&#8217;s just after eight and Michaela still isn&#8217;t back. I try her number but her phone is switched off, as it always is while she&#8217;s working. I write a quick note and stick it on the fridge. I wish I could at least say bye in person, but I guess this will have to do for now.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">Punctually, Gibbs and his movers load all my stuff into a hauling truck that&#8217;s <em>far<\/em> too large for the quantity it&#8217;s going to be carrying. Seems like such a waste. Right next to it, a jet-black Escalade remains parked, its impossibly polished surface like a mirror in the sunlight. An elderly man suddenly emerges from it and walks toward me. He smiles, bowing formally.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">&#8220;Miss Myers?&#8221; he inquires, detectable hints of a Germanic accent laced into his speech.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">&#8220;Y-yes, that&#8217;s me,&#8221; I swallow, still trying to process and take everything in as I literally watch my life change in the blink of an eye.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">&#8220;My name is Edgar,\u201d he extends his hand politely. &#8220;Mr. Zane has provided a private car for you.\u201d He gestures to the sleek SUV behind us. \u201cI&#8217;ll be your personal driver.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">I return the smile despite my surprise at his introduction. &#8220;Nice to meet you, Edgar.&#8221;<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">I\u2019d assumed I\u2019d be riding with the haulers. I definitely didn\u2019t expect to have another car sent just for me, as well.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">In the minutes that follow, I can do little else but observe the immediate workings of my new predicament in something of a daze, like it\u2019s happening to someone else. The whole thing feels like a bit of a dream. Not to mention, a spectacle.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">All this grandiose for a temporary employee.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">A <em>\u5927\u5b66<\/em> <em>intern<\/em>, no less.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">Then again\u2026this may very well just be the standard order of business at this company. A typical, everyday occurrence. Even my own brief encounter with its owner oozed of wealth and power. In <em>excess<\/em>. Of both. Chances are, money is the least of his problems.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">The moving truck takes off, going ahead of Edgar and I. We promptly follow suit, making our way to our designated vehicle. He opens the back door courteously, revealing a very spacious, starkly matte but equally jet-black interior. I mount the Escalade with my heart in my mouth, still in disbelief that this is happening. With a million and one thoughts scattered through my brain simultaneously, I slide into the backseat\u2026and go completely rigid when I realize it\u2019s all leather.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">My lips instantly part, ready to say something, but I stop myself just short of actually voicing anything, having to literally bite my tongue in order to do so, even as I feel anger bubble up inside me.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\"><em>Christ\u2026<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">I feel more and more conflicted with each interaction I have with this company. I don&#8217;t want to start my time at Zanergy off with complaints, especially before I even get to <em>see<\/em> the damn place, never mind actually work there. I know how much Earth Cap has riding on this. I already saw the look in Sam&#8217;s eyes yesterday.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\"><em>Absolutely <\/em>\u4e0d<em> room for fuck ups.<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\"><em>\u00a0<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">I hate feeling like I have to compromise myself; my core values and beliefs, and a huge part of me feels like a sellout for it. I also feel like a part of me just literally died a little inside, the morbid sensation of cold, lifeless skin seeming to clutch at mine even through my clothes, almost bringing me to tears, making me want to hurl all over it.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">I don&#8217;t know how I do it but I manage to stay seated for the entire two-hour trip, planted in the exact same spot. Thankfully, traffic isn\u2019t nearly as grotesque as I anticipate and, consequently, the journey isn&#8217;t as long. Or maybe it just feels that way because I have to mentally check out in order to keep myself from picking the very tempting option of jumping out of a tinted window.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">&#8220;We\u2019re finally here, ma&#8217;am,&#8221; Edgar announces as the engine dies down. I practically scramble out of the car the second he pulls up into a vast, largely vacant parking lot.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">I look ahead, stunned, my eyes ballooning inside my skull, like they have to increase their physical capacity to take in the entirety of the monumental sight before them.<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">Edgar smiles. &#8220;Welcome to your new home.&#8221;<\/span><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><span style=\"font-size: 18pt; font-family: 'times new roman', times, serif;\">***<\/span><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>&nbsp; &nbsp; &nbsp; I suck in a deep, mangled breath, willing my heart to calm itself, blinking rapidly at the screen and trying to steel my nerves as it continues to vibrate. &nbsp; I answer on the third one. &#8220;Hello?&#8221; I blurt into the receiver, feigning absent strength in my voice. &nbsp; &#8220;Hello,&#8221; a male voice responds on the other end\u2014one that obviously does not belong to Richard Zane. &#8220;Is this Miss Constance Myers?&#8221; &nbsp; A sense of disappointment instantly fills me, and I hate that it does; the tension&#8230; <span class=\"more\"><a class=\"more-link\" href=\"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/zh\/21-questions-chapter-nineteen\/\">\u9605\u8bfb\u66f4\u591a<\/a><\/span><\/p>","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":5760,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_bbp_topic_count":0,"_bbp_reply_count":0,"_bbp_total_topic_count":0,"_bbp_total_reply_count":0,"_bbp_voice_count":0,"_bbp_anonymous_reply_count":0,"_bbp_topic_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_reply_count_hidden":0,"_bbp_forum_subforum_count":0,"_themeisle_gutenberg_block_has_review":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[96,93],"tags":[],"series":[108],"class_list":["post-5804","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-contemporary-2","category-romance","series-21-questions"],"featured_image_src":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/21-Questions-Cover-Image.jpg","blog_images":{"medium":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/21-Questions-Cover-Image-300x200.jpg","large":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/21-Questions-Cover-Image.jpg"},"ams_acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/zh\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5804","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/zh\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/zh\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/zh\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/zh\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=5804"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/zh\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5804\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/zh\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/5760"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/zh\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=5804"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/zh\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=5804"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/zh\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=5804"},{"taxonomy":"series","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/emendedhearts.com\/zh\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/series?post=5804"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}