21 questions : chapitre six (édition jeu de rôle)

 

 

 

 

Deux semaines plus tard…

 

 

 

Le climatiseur bourdonne au loin, la fraîcheur de l'intérieur contraste fortement avec le soleil éclatant et ardent à l'extérieur. Il fait exceptionnellement chaud. Anormalement humide. Encore un autre sous-produit du réchauffement climatique.

 

Even so, you’ll take it over the depressing blizzard weather back in Salina this time of year any day.

 

For the very first time, you sit at a corner of the dainty, independent café you’ve been waiting tables at for almost three years.

 

Comme un client.

 

"Tu vas devenir aveugle si tu continues à lire ça, tu sais," rit Pey, sa voix tourbillonnant à la fois d'amusement et de tranquillité.

 

Your mouth is suspended over the glass straw in your bedazzled Mason jar mug, your lips parted as they hover absently over your neglected drink.

 

She keeps talking, and you hear everything she’s saying, but your eyes are glued to the already-crinkling letter in your hands, roaming over the typed words again and again; words that you have somehow memorized in less than twenty-four hours.

 

You’ve read the piece of paper several times now—way too many according to some people—including your best friend, Peyton.

 

You can’t believe you’re actually holding it; the fruit of your incessant labor. The end product of constant planning and preparation. The physical result of hard work, patience, passion and perseverance.

 

La lettre d'acceptation à Earth Capital.

 

Non…your lettre d'acceptation à Earth Capital.

 

Your one-way ticket to an elite, singular internship with one of the most prestigious environmental consulting companies in the world—even if said ticket doesn’t currently look so prestigious itself.

 

En un peu moins d'une journée, il est passé de son aspect d'origine impeccable à visiblement manipulé, avec deux oreilles de chien et une petite déchirure en bas.

 

Maybe you ont lu trop de fois.

 

“I still can’t believe I got picked,” you murmur, mostly to yourself, but you’re pretty sure Peyton hears you.

 

Your eyes flit away for a moment, locking on the ice in your citrus green tea. Idly, you stare at the transparent, identical cubes as they float adjacent to one another.

 

A strange, novel sentiment washes over you. One you can’t really describe. Or fathom.

 

It might be because you’ve quite littéralement been dreaming about this for so long that, on some level, it feels like you still are and just haven’t been pinched awake yet, but, for whatever bizarre reason, you visualize each cube as some part of yourself; like pieces of a puzzle that can’t quite seem to fit no matter how close they get. Like coins that can’t be aligned no matter how they’re stacked, even when they’re practically indistinguishable.

 

You’re far from superstitious, despite your religious upbringing. The oddity of this sentiment, however, feels somewhat…foreboding.

 

You have no idea why such a random, melancholic thought would cross your mind during what’s censé to be a triumphant, momentous time in your life.

 

You poke absently at one of them with the straw, submerging it completely in the yellow-green brew for a few seconds before it finds its way up from under the pressure. You repeat the action on the cube next to it. And the next. Until you’re not even sure what exactly you’re doing, anymore. You graduate to swirling the entire drink, the light chime of ice against glass interjecting sporadically. Nervous, pent-up energy bubbles up from nowhere, possessing you, demanding you expend some of it.

 

You swirl too quickly, inertia spilling your tea. The spatter misses your phone and the letter by a hair, your best friend managing to swipe them both away just in the nick of time.

 

Peyton sauve la situation une fois de plus.

 

Alors again, she’s always had really good reflexes. And being a former college volleyball player and martial arts enthusiast only adds to her agility. Plus, you think she saw it coming.

 

“Shit…thanks,” you sigh apologetically, reaching for a paper towel.

 

She stares at you for a moment. When she doesn’t look away, you can’t stop yourself from blurting, “What?”

 

Without a word, she motions downward with nothing but her eyes. Your gaze follows hers to find your free hand drumming against the table without your consent, fingernails tapping furiously on the wooden top with jagged rhythm.

 

"Jésus... tu es vraiment sont nervous,” she breathes, handing back both items like she knows you need to hold something, hints of worry creeping into her big, doe eyes. She takes a sip of her coffee. “I don’t understand. You’ve been wanting this forever. What are you so worried about?”

 

You shake your head. “I’m not worried, I’m just…”

 

Well, you’re not entirely sure quoi you are, to be honest. Your feelings are definitely mixed, partial, and just generally all over the place right now. Your mind is sort of on its own speedometer, going a million miles a second as too many thoughts struggle to go through it at the same time.

 

“I don’t know,” you shrug. “I guess I’m just still in shock. That it’s…réellement événement. Surtout après tout ce temps, tu sais ?

 

Pey acquiesce solennellement. "Ouais je sais."

 

Her gaze flits to her mug momentarily. She taps absently at the ceramic handle. You can tell she’s hesitating, almost as if she’s unsure of what to say next. But when she looks up again, a newly-formed grin meets you and, pretty soon, her full, naturally-puckered lips spread into a full-fledged, gorgeous smile.

 

You’ve probably seen it over a million times at this point and somehow it still has the ability to turn your heart to putty.

 

Typique Peyton Baxter.

 

Elle a un de ces sourires incroyablement radieux et enveloppants qui peuvent illuminer tout un stade de football. Sérieusement. Mais elle possède également cette sérénité naturelle inhérente, rayonnant aussi facilement qu'elle respire, même lorsqu'elle ne fait pas briller ses blancs nacrés. Une vraie beauté. À l'intérieur et à l'extérieur. Elle n'a même pas besoin de dire quoi que ce soit. C'est l'une des choses qui la rend si accessible. Tellement sympathique. Et c'est sûr que les gars la flattent comme des gosses devant des bonbons d'Halloween. Il n'est pas surprenant qu'elle n'ait jamais eu de problèmes pour rencontrer de nouvelles personnes ou se faire de nouveaux amis.

 

Can’t exactly say the same for yourself.

 

“I’ve said it before but it deserves repeating: I’m really proud of you, Connie,” she says, interjecting your thoughts, the sweetest, most genuine expression splayed across her pretty face. “No one inherently deserves anything but you’ve gagné cela plus que quiconque. Vous devriez aussi être vraiment fier de vous.

 

Your chest goes tight hearing the sincerity in her words. From the way she commends you. At how supportive she always is. And you just want to reach across the table and give her the biggest hug in the world. But a heavy feeling quickly settles in your gut, ensuring you stay put.

 

“Thanks, Pey,” you whisper, your voice strained, your throat constricting. You manage to offer a small smile in return, but an incoming threat of tears stings the corners of your eyes.

 

Her acknowledgment and praise touches you, much deeper than you realize. It’s not like you, but you can’t help but get emotional.

 

Ils disent que vous ne pouvez jamais vraiment connaître complètement une personne. Mais s'il y a quelqu'un qui sait you better than anybody else, it’s Pey. She’s the only person who knows pretty much everything you’ve been through these last five years, in particular. All the crap you’ve had to deal with and sacrifices you’ve had to make in order to get to this very moment.

 

And she’s right. You devrait soit fier.

 

For someone about to begin her final semester of college, you can’t imagine a better way to end your undergrad career than getting accepted into the annual, full-time internship program at Earth Capital.

 

Chaque année, il y a bien plus de quinze mille seniors des meilleures écoles de tout le pays qui veulent désespérément et se battent incroyablement dur pour la place convoitée et unique dans la prestigieuse société de conseil en environnement. Et cette remise des gaz n'a pas été différente.

 

Cela a été quatre longs mois remplis d'angoisse du début à la fin; la préparation constante, les innombrables étapes de la candidature, le processus tumultueux, l'attente, le doute, l'espoir, et parfois même littéralement keeping your fingers crossed.

 

Tout pour cette lettre d'acceptation.

 

So, when you unexpectedly received it in the mail this morning, you’d all but jumped out of your own skin and have been completely restless ever since. It came in a little earlier than the date you were given by the interviewer, so you weren’t at all expecting to see it sitting in yours and Michaela’s mailbox.

 

You’d struggled—with quite a bit of difficulty—to contain your excitement as you broke the envelope’s seal, unfolded the letter, and read the ultimate words of approval addressed to you on the formal paper.

 

You honestly didn’t think you’d get it, and a part of you had already prepared yourself for that. But now…

 

Dieu…

 

In truth, you hadn’t allowed yourself to think this far ahead so you never imagined you’d be cette emotional, but you are. You really are. And happy. Really, vraiment content.

 

You know a few of your classmates will be happy for you, too, but you also know that the overwhelming majority is going to be more than a little salty about the outcome. Can’t say you blame them. Every single person had hoped it would be their name on the sealed envelope as much as you did. It’s common knowledge that Earth Capital, informally dubbed “Earth Cap”, pretty much guarantees post-grad success; turning lowly interns into vetted, high-demand professionals who write their own checks and get their pick of countless, top-earning clients across all industries, no matter what they choose to specialize in. There was even a credibly-sourced rumor floating around about the last intern who was, apparently, offered integral, far-from-entry-level positions with, not one, but douze Entreprises Fortune 500 dès le départ.

         

So, naturally, as soon as you got the good news—and once you were done screaming and jumping up and down in front of the mailbox like a crazy person—you called in and confirmed your receipt, as per the instructions.

 

You start tomorrow.

 

And you can hardly wait.

 

But, in spite of the edge and all the advantages this internship bestows on its victor, you didn’t make its acquisition your year-long obsession and objective because of monetary prospects or exclusive credentials. Nor did you do so for the potential bragging rights you could toss in the faces of your mother and father—who were both very vocal about and critical of your choice to switch from pre-med to environmental science half-way through college, insisting it was the biggest mistake of your young life.

 

As unoriginal as it sounds, the reason you jumped at the chance to work for Earth Capital, the “holy grail” of environmental consultancy, is because you genuinely want to make the world a better place.

 

Oui, c'est cliché en diable. Presque puérilement donc. Et, Oui, plutôt tout le monde says that. You know.

 

Mais c'est la vérité.

 

Your vérité.

 

While most of your fellow seniors have already done their best to party as much as humanly possible, get laid as much as humanly possible, and come up with new and inventive ways to beat the common hangover as many times as humanly possible before the real world starts breathing down their necks, your formative years as a young adult were spent brainstorming ways to circumvent the premature melting of polar ice caps, raising awareness about endangered land and aquatic species, and organizing rallies against unclean, unsustainable human practices.

 

As a result, you’re that one person in class who always has the expressed opinions, rarely drinks anything stronger than a cup of coffee…and has never had sex.

 

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